Your Average Puberscent

2010-01-17T19:25:00.000+08:00

2010-01-16T17:21:00.001+08:00

You will be a rock. You will be water. You will be both. Never be afraid to change how you feel and never forget how in control you really are.

2010-01-16T03:39:00.001+08:00

we die a little everyday, but it's okay.
you breathe a little bit of life in me everyday too.

2010-01-10T05:08:00.001+08:00

can we make this moment last forever?

2010-01-05T15:57:00.001+08:00

Almost every year, I would definitely get down to at least writing out my resolutions (even if I may forget them soon after).

Just realized that I hadn't even thought of writing any this year, and just realized that I totally forgot making any last year.

Maybe because I went into 2009 excited and hopeful, without feeling the need for any resolutions.
And maybe because 2009 was such an awesome year,

I'm going into 2010 excited and hopeful, without feeling the need for any resolutions.

2010-01-04T17:19:00.002+08:00

like constellations that collide, the aftermath consists of whisperings in the dark.
They observe through their telescopes and all that savvy equipment.

Speculations and hypotheses.
science and facts.

But beyond all that lies the basis of love and humanity.
Beyond what people beyond this dimension can understand.

Faith.

2010-01-03T04:40:00.001+08:00

Where are we?
What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just begun
to form crop circles in the carpet
Sinking, feeling.

Spin me round again
And rub my eyes
This can't be happening

Hide and Seek.
Trains and sewing machines.
All those years.
They were here first.

2010-01-02T04:52:00.002+08:00

in reality, balance doesn't exist.

discontentment, unfulfilment, regret.
greener grass and fuller cups.

2009-12-29T04:46:00.001+08:00

I miss sitting in the band room, holding my clarinet, and have music flowing through my veins.

2009-12-27T03:33:00.003+08:00

We can live a glorious life, be beautiful, check off every item on our to-do list, eat the finest food in the world, lie in our pool of wealth.

but at the end of the day, when we leave this world,
we forget the glorious lives we've led, we sag and wrinkle like apples that've been left out in the open for too long, we're too weak to even hold pens to make, much less check to-do lists, we don't feed, we're spoon fed like kids, and finally, we lie in our own pool of pee.

Such is the sad fact of life.
Why can't we all just fade away at 60?

2009-12-25T15:41:00.000+08:00

Though it's been said
Many times many ways

Merry Christmas to you.

2009-12-24T04:37:00.003+08:00

nonetheless, i love you.

really.

2009-12-22T02:36:00.002+08:00

And then suddenly you change everything and make my heart beat again. The way you hold my face between your hands and smile at me; like i'm something precious. It's as though I never screwed up, as though I've never hurt you before. It's amazing. I feel shiny and new each time you do that. And I want to feel shiny and new every single day. You DO love me, and I dont deserve any bit of that love or affection. I'm imperfect and flawed. But you; you're a gem. How did you fall for someone like me? Why did you? It's like, for so long, God has given me all the wrong directions and now he's had his share of fun and is finally pointing me to the right place.

So cup my face between your hands and look at me like I'm shiny and new.
Like I'm precious.
Like I sparkle.

2009-12-13T13:01:00.002+08:00

the constant need to review, to assess, to compare, to bargain, to extrapolate.

why can't we just see ourselves for who we are, instead of who we're up against?

2009-12-10T11:20:00.000+08:00

feeling sad. :(

2009-11-27T07:55:00.002+08:00

I thought I could never love again.

And then you came along and changed all my beliefs. You invaded my dreams and camp out in the corners of my mind. You stole my heart in return for yours. And I'm grateful for that change, for that invasion, and for that theft. You reside in the recesses of my heart and mind such that all I do and think and feel is you.

Let them say we're crazy and stupid.
I don't mind really, crazy and stupid sounds good to me. (:

2009-11-24T03:17:00.002+08:00

So just pause and take a moment to breathe in the wonders of the world as I pause and take a moment to breathe in the wonder that is you.

and I hope I am your world.

2009-11-23T00:48:00.002+08:00

words cut, they really do.

and I'm sorry I chose the wrong words, that I strung those words into a sentence so painful that it cut so deep, too deep.

2009-11-21T02:11:00.001+08:00

2009-11-21T01:11:00.001+08:00

I feel so alone.

2009-11-20T22:39:00.002+08:00

It's like, being boxed into this paradise and occasionally being yanked out into the open, for a moment or two, to stare at reality in the eye.

Which begs the question: The box or the reality?

2009-11-13T03:07:00.001+08:00

like looking through a tainted lens.

I'm not quite sure that what I see is really what I get.

2009-11-12T01:23:00.002+08:00

I know this is super ostentatious and extravagant and ah lian but...

it's superrrr chio!

2009-11-11T04:46:00.001+08:00

no matter what you do, no matter how hard you try, you won't succeed.

it's only yours if it's yours to take.

2009-11-10T05:17:00.000+08:00

maybe one day we'll feel that way again.

2009-11-08T06:02:00.000+08:00

I'm sure you've met them. They say they’ll put you back together while they’re tearing everything apart. And they use the type of lips you can taste for years.

2009-10-29T03:50:00.001+08:00

i need to grow up.

2009-10-27T02:33:00.003+08:00

If I am lost for a day; try to find me
But if I don't come back, then I won't look behind me
All of the things that I thought were so easy
Just got harder and harder each day
December is darkest and June is the light but this empty bedroom won't make anything right

I dreamed I was dying; as I so often do
And when I awoke I was sure it was true
I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there,please don't let me die
But I can't live forever,I can't always be
One day I'll be sand on a beach by a sea
The pages keep turning, I'll mark off each day with a cross
And I'll laugh about all that we've lost

2009-10-26T23:16:00.002+08:00

or maybe I was wrong.

2009-10-23T04:53:00.002+08:00

I will not retreat into that dark, painful and self-destroying abyss. I will not give in to the night. I will not give up. I will struggle, I will fight. I'll be better on my own than I ever was.

I will not let anyone break me. Least of all, you.

But you will not throw me into that dark, painful and self destroying abyss. You will not give me up to the night. You will not give up. You will struggle, you will fight. You'll be better with me than you ever were.

We will not let anyone break us. Least of all, you.

I believe you because I believe in our love.
I believe in our love because I believe you.

And if at the end of the day, if i am wrong, then so be it.
We all believe wrongly, choose foolishly, invest erroneously at some point in our lives.
But it is worse to sit back and watch opportunities slip through our fingers.

The truth will always find a way to surface. For me right now the truth is that you love me and we are set for forever.

2009-10-21T02:00:00.000+08:00

am i that bad?

2009-10-20T01:01:00.001+08:00

Burrrrrn outttttt. Sometimes I just want to give up on doing honours and just enjoy my uni life.

It's my youth after all, the best years of my life right?
Ugh no Rachel. Focus. Focus.

2009-10-14T00:28:00.001+08:00

the beginning of the end.

2009-10-12T20:14:00.001+08:00

losing you a little more each day.

2009-10-12T02:36:00.002+08:00

Work is piling up.

Uni life is great, really. You don't have to study much to survive. IMO A levels was a lot harder. With all the fears of retaining or ending up with a useless A level certificate.

But for some reason I just can't seem to score well in university. I know I'm not stupid, so why are my grades reflecting the very opposite?

GRR. And weird people like BBE are doing so well in school when they can't even form a proper sentence.

sigh. back to my project. I'm writing a psychological thriller for my interactive storytelling module (which is my favourite module of all time, by the way)!

p.s. wish I was in Law school :(

2009-10-07T02:58:00.001+08:00

I love you.

So fucking much.

2009-10-05T03:53:00.002+08:00

I will not make the same mistakes as you did. I will cherish, treasure and keep every little thing close to my heart. I will love more, give more, and never ever inflict pain.

I will be the kind of person you could never be.

I will be the one and only, the forever and always.
I will be me.

2009-10-02T00:58:00.000+08:00

talk is cheap.

2009-09-28T03:18:00.001+08:00

I don't understand this, I don't understand why, I don't understand how.

I don't understand you.

2009-09-25T01:33:00.000+08:00

posted this before, but am posting this again cos I love it so much.

When it comes down to meeting, and dating, and actually falling in real love, with a real person... when we take this discussion out of the "general statistics" that get put on a Match.com profile search, and apply it to one-on-one, the man who really wants me, who is my person, will love me despite my flaw of an imperfect body.

My finer points will outweigh my actual weight in his eyes. As, I am sure, he will have many imperfections that I will become oblivious to, in my experience of him, because of all of his wonderfulness.

That's how real love works.

The miracle and glory of true love is that we all aren't our height, or our chest size, or our tummy buldge, or our penis length. Love makes us blind to the body, and opens our eyes up to the souls.

You fall in love with the person inside the body, and you stay in love with the person inside the body.

2009-09-22T21:54:00.002+08:00

This is so us. (:
love everything about you.

2009-09-22T20:37:00.002+08:00

it's recess week!

I think I'm suffering a case of academic burnout- I've been religiously doing my work and going for class, and this is making me not wanna study anymore! I'm really bad when it comes to being consistent in my work.

For those who care (and don't already know), Mark got his own car! It's a mazda 3 and although it's really convenient and all, I think Mark's starting to dread having to drive everyone around.
I remember before he got his car he told me he would drive me to school and all, but now...
HAHA. I think he regrets saying that!

Anyway, I'm thinking of dropping my physics module. There's just no way I'm gonna do well for it. But if I drop it I'd have to stay back an extra semester (or take an extra module next semester. NO WAY). UGH hate the fact that they force us to take science modules, the holistic education thing is pissing me off. I'm sure physics is going to help me in my career next time.

GAH. Back to studying.

2009-09-09T23:20:00.000+08:00

Looking for waitresses (girls) to work one night in Bintan for a prestigious Aston Martin event!

Pay: 300USD
Hours: Sunday Night (13sept) to Monday Afternoon
Dresscode: Beachwear

If you or if you think your friends will be interested, contact me at kukup0k@hotmail.com

2009-09-06T03:59:00.000+08:00

I'm supposed to write a story for one of my modules, so I decided to write a story on...

Left 4 Dead! HAHA. I know it sounds really geeky and all but i can't think of anything else that I might enjoy writing. Ah well.

2009-09-03T04:46:00.000+08:00

I can't sleep.

2009-09-02T22:59:00.000+08:00

I used to be so determined and driven in everything. I used to be sure and steady. Now I'm just reduced to an emotional mess with no backbone whatsoever.

I miss being smart.

2009-08-30T13:34:00.000+08:00

To Ivan-

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

2009-08-30T02:26:00.003+08:00

Went to Timbre today with Mark. Queued for like 1 and a half hours OMG. I don't remember the last time I queued so long. I was about to faint from hunger when we finally got a seat. 1 pizza and 1/4 pint of Erdinger beer later, I was bloated to the core and positively sweating from my pits.

All in all, we spent more time queuing than eating. Went back to Mark's after just one set. Didn't take any pictures because although I remembered to bring out my camera, I forgot to charge it. :/

Caught the Arsenal Man-U game with Mark and his brother. Ended up supporting Arsenal although I'm a Man-U fan because Arsenal had suchhh a nice jersey and Man-U's just not the same without their poster boy.

Had an awesome day with Mark. Am possibly the luckiest girl in the world.

Feel weird blogging again after so long. This will need some getting used to.
Goodnight world.

2009-08-29T05:06:00.000+08:00

I'm back.

And i just saw a baby lizard on my table. Guess I should stop leaving food around. sigh.

2009-05-09T15:37:00.000+08:00

my dear,

we're slow dancing in a burning room.

2008-10-10T03:30:00.003+08:00

I am closing this blog, because it does not mean anything to me anymore.

I am starting a new chapter in life and leaving my blog, as well as the past memories encapsulated in this blog. It's not a sad occasion. Maybe I'll start somewhere else, or maybe I won't. Perhaps blogging was a trend that I've grown out of. Or pehaps there are some things that I'd very much rather forget.

I doubt I'll be missed. Readership has dropped DRASTICALLY, save for a few ardent friends (I don't have any fans, sadly.)

Oh and by closing I don't mean shutting down the blog. I'll leave the url active, I just won't post anymore. Quite typical of the sentimentalist I am. Well it HAS been 4 years of ranting, emoing and crapping. You can't really blame me for being sentimental, right?

So goodbye earthlings.
Remember the things you can't have enough of and deserve to have more- good food, sleep, sex, Maltese puppies, geunine friendships, and true love.

God bless (if he still bothers about me), and take care.

P.S. I LOVE YOU.
More than you know, more than you can ever imagine.
You will always be my comfort, my solace, my home.

2008-09-23T03:36:00.000+08:00

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there,
Had worn them really about the same

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

2008-09-17T12:30:00.001+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG I CAN'T WAIT.

2008-09-13T22:57:00.003+08:00

last night, i dreamt of many things.

One of them I distinctly remember was me literally running away from home. I ran faster than I ever did in my life, and I knew I ran very far with the wind against my face. I covered great distance and yet exhaustion never did set in. My energy was infinite, my determination, limitless. I didn't know why I was running, I only knew I had to. I ran and ran and ran and lo and behold- I arrived in Italy. Standing outside the glass windows of the designer shops. HAHA.

It was a weird yet exhilarating dream. The running was amazing- having the speed and power, without being stopped or restricted.

The Italy thing is totally wtf i know, but the running was incredible.
But somehow, it's not too nice to know that in my dream I was running away from my life.

2008-08-30T15:18:00.001+08:00

Things are taking a turn for the better.

(:

2008-08-23T00:18:00.002+08:00

Today at Wheelock, Steffi, Marie-Anne, Kesleen and I saw the MTV VJ Utt.

I hate to sound like a noob teeny bopper but I pretended to look at a brouchere while peeping at him. I SWEAR he is the most gorgeous thing I laid my eyes on in YEARS.

I AM IN LOVE.

HAHA. On a serious note (not that I wasn't serious before...), pageant is tomorrow! I am excited because. well, it IS exciting. but I am very afraid that I might fall on stage with my 4 inch heels and then zao geng for all of Zouk to see.

GAH. See you guys tomorrow! remember, tonight we emo.

tomorrow night we PARTY!

2008-08-21T22:17:00.002+08:00

just two days to pageant.

I really can't wait for it to be over. photoshoots, fittings, catwalk practices and more fittings are draining whatever remaining life i have in me.

french and usp are KILLING me. i have no life.

and it doesn't help that everyone around me (including myself) are emo nemo.
but nevermind. tonight, we emo.

Saturday night, we PARTY.

2008-08-12T22:18:00.002+08:00

so school has officially started today.

GRRRRRR. it sucks. lectures are horrible. especially my tuesdays. My tuesdays start with an 8am mind-draining USP lecture (which is a really a tutorial group of 12) and end at 12pm with French and no break in between.

French is scary. My English isn't great and now I have to learn another language altogether. And I'm so sad, I have no friends in French at all. French ended an hour earlier today and I had to mass message to ask people if they were in school yet.

ok i just made myself sound REALLLLY pathetic.

but anyway, I'm still trying to orientate myself round the school, and my bad sense of direction is really hampering my progress. Train rides are a BITCH i swear. I come home exhausted and pissy everyday.

Things aren't going so well, but I'm not really someone who likes to divulge on my personal life. So therefore hear-me-rawr.blogspot.com is hereby declared DEAD.

2008-08-08T14:55:00.001+08:00

seriously, what on earth is going on?

2008-08-05T23:38:00.004+08:00

at this point things are rather screwed up.

1) i got my knees scraped at o-week (VERY UGLY!)
2) USP is a nightmare. I went there and everyone knew each other! I felt so out of place because I didn't go for ANY camps whatsoever. and I'm sorry to say this but it was such a nerd fest and I stayed for only 1 hour or so.
3) why do i feel so freaking lethargic?

but anyhows, NUS pageant is coming! do come and have fun, don't need to vote for me. just vote for whoever you think is the hottest!

arts bash webbie

and...

click here. HAHA!

2008-08-02T17:46:00.001+08:00

If the fog clears,
the shadows disappear,
the sun penetrates,
and the mask unveils;

If you knew the truth-

would you still be you?

2008-07-31T00:50:00.002+08:00

And so school unofficially starts tomorrow. Travelling to NUS has proven to be nightmarish indeed.

In case some of you are wondering, I am not staying in hall.

BECAUSE: my parents don't trust me and they're worried i'll turn havoc and all without their constant surveillance on me.

It's so unfair, because I am a really good girl with no vices. REALLY.

But yes, I haven't been blogging lately cos i've been really busy catching up with people, plus school has a bit of shit here and there, and I really don't want to bore people with details of my school life. plus, I have no inspiration to blog about any general topic AND i'd prefer to keep my personal life, well, personal.

To sum it up, my blog is going to be dead really soon.

2008-07-29T03:21:00.001+08:00

2008-07-24T19:27:00.002+08:00

VERY UNLUCKY.

just when I'm about to start school, my little pet sitting enteprise starts to get VERY active.

I received two dog walking assignments, both on a DAILY basis. That would mean good money! but i can't take them up because i'm starting school.

I also received a tuition assignment, from a Korean family (again) who wants tuition on a DAILY basis. That would mean good money too! but i can't take them up because i'm starting school.

I had 8 months of bumming around, why do things only start falling in place when I'm about to start school? Grr.

2008-07-21T23:26:00.000+08:00

It is never about how the world looks at you; it is how you look at the world.

2008-07-21T15:40:00.002+08:00

When you've given your heart and mind so completely and freely; when you've loved and lived and breathed nothing else but one thing for so long; when it blinds you and chews you inconspicuously and slowly on the inside; when everything you've ever done for or given to someone amounts to nothing-

something as simple as liking someone is as arduous and nerve-wrecking as a giant leap of faith.

2008-07-19T00:32:00.004+08:00

seriously, you're pathetic.

I wash my hands off you, your screwed up life and your future (or rather, the lack of one).

2008-07-17T22:39:00.003+08:00

Dearest Jade,

We've known each other for a pretty long time, but I've only begun to appreciate and love the ang moh you are for only over 5 months. Over this 5 months, I've only officially planned to hang out with you twice. The first time I brought you to eat horrible swensen's icecream on a rainy day. The second time, I... decided to be very lazy and chose school over Island Cremery.

Pretty pathetic right?

So you had better get your white ass back here soon for a proper ice cream treat. IC, Haagen Dazx, B&js. You name it this time. Because I know I'll miss you so much. Miss calling you a slutty ang moh (because ang mohs are sluts, right?), miss telling you that your face looks better covered, miss choosing school over island cremery and giving the excuse that I'm afraid you'll get fat. hey, it IS a valid reason right?

I remembered how you randomly messaged me on facebook and asked me if I was okay when you found out about the breakup. And i remembered going like, "Jade? really?! is she concerned or just kpo?! them chao ang mohs..."

And then we talked more and your facebook messages were so long and you never really pressed for details, only offered words of comfort and a sturdy manly white shoulder to cry on if i ever needed one. It felt funny, because I felt like I knew you, yet at the same time I felt like I barely knew you. Nonetheless I felt so comfortable talking to you about anything at all, that I told you everything happening in my life with so much ease.

You're a gem, you know? Your personality is like overflowing with awesomeness and I really enjoy being around you. Your sarcasm and white pride. Your insatiable greed for icecream. Your inexplicable and understandable obssession over a particular short-legged, big-assed boy (i can totally relate, really).

Quite simply put, Jade, I wished we had more time. You are such an amazing person. I am bummed to see you leave, yet at the same time I'm so so excited to see you living it up in the land of handsome boys.

You're moving on to bigger and better things right? Yes, BIGGER. HAHAHA.

I hope you have a nice life Jade.

You will be missed.
I love you.

Love, Kwan.

2008-07-16T02:07:00.010+08:00

A6 gathering

had a very good turnout! only 4 people didn't come. It was fun catching up, talking about school and having the boys talking about army (that really really sucks though). We should do it again soon. With the 4 missing people.

Then had yet another OG outing at Marina, where we had horrible Indonesian food. Funny, Nicole had her class gathering there and she said the food was good. My entire OG complained and my AOGL even got pissed with the restaurant.

I need to catch up with the rest of the world before school starts. I'm pretty bummed that THE holiday of my life is about to come to an end, yet I am very excited about what's in store for me. This is where I start all over and move on from the shitty past.

2008-07-14T19:27:00.005+08:00

just to add a little colour to my blog..

more pictures soon, promise.

2008-07-14T19:16:00.002+08:00

And so i figured I'm getting old.

woke up bright and early (9am) today for medical checkup at nus. the urine test was bordering on embarrassing/hilarious (i can't really decide). Some girl's pee was like transparent. i swear. entirely colourless. then others' urine sample just looked like they poured green tea into the cup...

the x-ray scan was funny. I went in and the first thing the lady said was, "take out your shirt and your bra and put this (the robe) on". I was like, okay... I mean i'm not particularly embarrassed but there were boys in the room and THEY looked sheepish.

went down to SAJC where i waited for Jade for like an hour, wonderrrrful. haha. WAS supposed to go to Island Cremery with her but I felt so comfortable in school and I was having fun catching up with people, so we didn't go in the end. Jade proceeded to be very spoilt indeed by showing me her grumpy face the entire day.

rushed home from SAJC. WANTED to crash NUS pre-camp. I even packed my bag and coordinated timings with my friend. And then I sat down to have my dinner and could barely stay awake. so I decided to rot at home like a lazy ass instead.

realllllly getting old.

i'm falling asleep as i speak/type. need.sleep.

goodnight!

2008-07-11T18:47:00.000+08:00

seriously,

SCREW ALL THE LIZARDS AND GERMANS IN THE WORLD.

2008-07-10T00:01:00.003+08:00

I'm currently under the weather! yet again.

and although i am coughing and sneezing and choking repeatedly, i am going to meet jadey jade tomorrow to have some superb Island Cremery! yay to us. Jade that lucky bitch is going to Australia! where all the cute boys reside... grr.

I'll blog a proper one soon. soon enough. right now, I gotta settle all the registration shit for NUS. I really hate those.

Have a nice week people. (:

2008-07-06T01:16:00.003+08:00

Got into NUS USP (University Scholar's Programme) and SEP (where I'll be able to take up French and go to France to study in a French Uni for a semester, how cool is that?)

It appears that getting in FASS isn't such a bad thing after all.

I swear I couldn't love my life more.

2008-07-01T01:10:00.021+08:00

arts camp 08!

i think its level of enjoyment varies from person to person. I personally found it enjoyable. It wasn't absolutely awesomely incredible, but good enough for me to say that I didn't regret spending 5 days in NUS. (:

as with every other camp, there was alot of cheering, house competitions, lots of station games, fun in the sun, and bad food.

yes, I believe i lost quite a bit of weight, if it was even possible for me to do so. We slept in hall (dorms) so it wasn't that bad, although I was very anal about the weird smell in the room. At the end of the 5 days i was exhausted but contented. It was a good experience, and I got to know some pretty awesome people there. I think the experience varies from person to person because of the kind of people the person mixes with. also, i think the kind of attitude you bring to camp translates to the kind of emotion the camp leaves you with.

but mainly i'm just glad to have made some really great friends. (: enough talk, pictures time!

day 1

day 2

i swear the whole world was like fascinated with the SAS rugby t-shirt. There was even a debate amongst other HOUSE people whether my shirt was a school shirt or not. and of course alot of people told me it was nice and asked me where i got it from. haha. it was pretty amusing.

random guy: is that your shirt?
me: no, my ex-boyfriend's brother's.
random guy: SO PUNY?!?!?

day 4- sentosa!

the night my secret pal was revealed.

day 4 (the night we went to the suckass club)

day 5

and finally...

it's time to hit the sack. really don't regret my 5 days and my 50 bucks. but for now, i'm just glad i dont have to respond to everything with a loud, enthusiastic "woooooooooo!"

goodnight. (:

2008-06-28T14:47:00.000+08:00

im back from camp! yay.

don't have the time to update and upload pictures now, gonna go shopping with my mommy!

promise an update by tomorrow at least. camp was good. (:

2008-06-22T23:04:00.001+08:00

i'm off to NUS arts camp tomorrow. it's a 5 day long camp where i have to wake up at 8 every morning. -GROANS-

i had better have fun.

see you guys in a week!

2008-06-16T00:42:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

2008-06-15T21:56:00.009+08:00

To all you milkshake lovers out there- MILKSHAKE'S IN THE HOUSE YO! LITERALLY!

hahaha mok's family went to church camp so the little fella is residing at my place now. Sadly his stay has come to an end. I'm putting him back in mok's fatty hands tomorrow when they get back.

Haha milkshake's stay here has been bittersweet.

it's obvious why it's sweet- that little devil is too adorable for words.

bitter because my OWN dog bailey got so super jealous that she hid under the bed, refused food, and acted weirdly. at one point bailey even became aggressive whenever my brother (who is so so so so fixated on milkshake) tried to get her out from under the bed.

even my daddy (who almost never ever plays with bailey) goes to milkshake the first thing he comes home from work.

bailey and milkshake even got into a scuffle when milkshake pounced on bailey playfully. Bailey growled at milkshake and milkshake bolted off while whimpering. that little fella is a devil. One night bailey was running into my room to sleep at her usual spot beside my bed. milkshake barked menacingly (or so he thought) at bailey and bailey actually ran off. :( she wouldnt come back and she slept in the living room that night. that little fella even went into bailey's bed and stole her bone. poor bailey.

It was also bitter because the night mok handed him back to me, he was like close to dying. he was hardly the puppy we brought back from the farm. he was merely lying there, and was wheezing and coughing almost every 5 minutes. He kept coughing up phlegm. I was worried to the point of agitation. Thankfully after being on medication, he got alot better, and now only has sneezing bouts, albeit very cute ones.

I'll miss milkshake. His silly antics of running and bouncing all over the place. my room has 3 wall length mirrors and he always runs into them. He tried biting the REFLECTION of his toy. he also growls at his own reflection, and at other times simply stops to stare at himself. haha vain shit. he also chases brooms and mops and well. HE'S PAPER-TRAINED ALREADY! I rule.

PICTURE TIME!

Milkshake when he was sick.

Milkshake venturing into Bailey's bed.

Bailey VS Milkshake

Meatrolls! hahaha

proof that Milkshake is paper-trained. HAHAHHA.

alright i gotta go back to marking my tuition kid's homework. Tuition is good money and time passes by really quickly but it really is such a drag. School's starting and I'm half excited/half dreading it. I wanna wake up at 5pm everyday! gahhh bye.

2008-06-09T17:50:00.012+08:00

WARNING: IMAGE HEAVY DOGGY POST AHEAD!

So yes, Mok and I made a visit to the pet farm at Pasir Ris where we simply melted our hearts away at all the puppies. Mok wanted to buy one and because yes, puppies are very expensive, he needed capital from his uncle. However his usually-loving and doting uncle said that a dog was a no-no because Mok's grandma was afraid of dogs (although technically, his grandma only popped by once a week). nonetheless we went ANYWAY, and we fell so deeply in love.

2 days after we couldn't stop thinking of the dogs and together with Steffi and Marie-Anne, we braved the rain and went to the petfarm and melted once more. Mok had always wanted a maltese so naturally he set his eyes on an incredibly adorable maltese puppy.

We knew that a dog was forbidden in his household, but like selfish friends, we peer-pressured (or rather we simply told him what he wanted to hear) him into buying the maltese puppy and he caved in to temptation. haha. put a deposit and collected him on Sunday.

we named him milkshake! cos he's white and he shakes and bounces when he runs (or attempts to). He's simply the most precious thing ever. he's afraid of heights. like he's afraid to go down steps. and not just normal staircase-height steps. even those little 2 cm steps you find in your house are like terrorizing for him to get down from. he's frickin mischievous cos he's at the teething age.

haha he's also pretty well-behaved for a puppy. he doesn't bark much, only whines a little when we put him back in his cage. but the whining dies off after awhile as he slowly dozes off, and proceeds to fall into a deep slumber that no one can wake him up from.

oh oh and he watches tv i swear! last night he was just chilling and Alicia Keys' No One came on MTV and he was barking so much. we then tried to switch channels.

"he's a boy! change to ESPN!"
"there's boxing!"

but the barking was relentless. until we switched to cartoon network and he was absolutely contented with Tom and Jerry. hahaha.

Milkshake on his way home!

Milkshake in his new home

i apologise for spamming Milkshake's photos! i'm going to nap now, very sleepy. gave tuition this morning. night!

2008-06-05T23:14:00.002+08:00

SO. now that I am currently unemployed again (i'll save that long story for another day...)

I've been sleeping at 7am and waking up at 5pm almost everyday! And sadly, no I haven't had much of a life for the past 2 weeks cos my pay cheque took 566425263 years to come in so I had no money to spend. Naturally I stayed home (where meals+entertainment are free) and lazed my bum off the entire day.

There was one day i woke up at 4pm and then proceeded to be very sleepy, then I took a nap at 7pm and woke up at 10pm and stayed online+watched tv+talked on the phone till 7am. very happening.

so anyway, i'm getting my life (AND cashflow) back on track. Took up this crazy tuition assignment where I daringly quoted 30/hr for the p5 kid. One subject only somemore. It's kinda crazy cos JC tuition is 30/hr and I'm charging 30/hr for Primary tuition. Astonishingly the lady agreed. The family is Korean and they stay in this kickass condo in Simei. So very near, very nice place, very good pay. Quite stressful though cos they really expect alot from me since they're paying me so much. But still, tuition is good money. I work maximum 2 hours a day per assignment and I am highly overpaid. The best part is that I can continue tutoring when I start school so I have alot alot alot of money to bust on SHOPPING!

so anyway, I am going to be very familiar with that kickass condo because coincidentally, I have another job offer there! Remember Pet Nanny? yeah. it didn't die. I had a few offers from there but none of them actually worked out due to various reasons (timing clashes, travelling distances etc) but this one sounds really good! This dude here wants me to take care of his Husky puppy (OMGZXZXZX HUSKY PUPPPY!!) at his kickass condo when he's away. It sounds like it's going to be a blast! I hope we manage to find an agreement and that i will finally FINALLY be able to say that my Pet Nanny venture is not a totally failure.

MMMM okay so i'm back to supporting myself and earning money and living comfortably once again. gotta head to bed early tonight, have to wake up super early tomorrow cos tuition's at 10. no more sleeping till 5pm! :(
nighty night.

2008-05-31T18:17:00.000+08:00

How bout a round of applause?
Standin ovation...
Ooooh
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standin' outside my house
Tryin' to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
(Please)
Just cut it out

Don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone
(You better hurry up)
Before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' bout "Girl, I love you you're the one..."
This just looks like a re-run
(Please)
What else is on?

And don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

And the award for the best liar goes to you
For makin' me believe
That you could be
Faithful to me
Let's hear your speech
oh...

How bout a round of applause?
Standin' ovation...

But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

But it's over now...

Rihanna- Take a bow

2008-05-26T16:46:00.003+08:00

and so charlene, here are the photos from our fantabulous night at timbre.

we didn't take too many, cos Daniel was busy drooling over the "cute" guy from Good Fellas and charlene was busy ta-ing. HAHA.

rest of A6 on 7th june yes?

2008-05-25T03:07:00.003+08:00

And so i've heard about some stuff...

1) that a particularly SHE is telling a whole different story as to what happened between my ex-boyfriend and her
2) that random kpo people read my blog, mainly because they want to know about what happened between my ex-boyfriend and her.

and so i would like to take this perfect opportunity to tell all of you nothing but the truth. and i'm not telling you from the point of view of a malicious, betrayed ex-girlfriend. i never had the intention of ruining her, because if i did, i would have put her name together with the link to her friendster page a long long LONG time ago.

but read back on my posts, especially those posted around the time i found out about it. i never once gave away her identity, or even hinted at her ethnicity, because that would have been obvious as well.

i am hurt and angry, but i do not wish to ruin her. no, it's not because i am great and righteous, but it's because i simply don't see a point- it's not as if ruining her will de-ruin myself.

what really happened was simple. my ex-boyfriend cheated on me with her.

it's not simply his fault or hers, because it takes two hands to clap (or clasp for this matter... H-A-H-A) . the fact is, it happened.
but HOW it happened, is where it gets interesting, because SHE initiated it.

and this side of the story, is not some story that my ex-boyfriend cooked up in a bid to save his sorry ass. it's a story that SHE admitted to when i confronted her.

and mind you, like my ex-boyfriend, she's a fucking coward.

because when i confronted them both (separately), it was plain denial all the way. it was until they realized that there simply was no where to run, no more lies to spin, that they both admitted to what they had done.

so people, SHE admitted to me about THIS side of the story. she apologized profusely and tried to convince me to stay with him because when they cheated "there were no feelings involved" and it was a "stupid mistake" and she knows that "he really really loves you, rachel".

it's kinda funny how they both said the same thing. is it like some sort of a shit-i-just-got-busted-for-cheating script?

i didn't fabricate the story to make myself look like the victim, because seriously, i feel fucking pathetic being the victim. beside her, i feel inadequate. the entire incident has humiliated me and torn me apart. it has changed me into someone so bitter. it has left me with a scar that i can only wish for to fade. i DO NOT wish to make myself look like the victim.

but it fucking pisses me off to know that she acted so apologetic when she finally admitted that they cheated, and that now she's claiming innocence. i don't know how many of you actually fell for it, i just thought it was time that you really knew the truth about her.

because be careful, you'll never know what she's thinking. she was doing all those stuff with him and telling me how pretty she thought i was, or how nice my voice was. she was throwing compliment after compliment at me so i wouldn't suspect her, so i would believe that she was too wonderful a person to do such a thing.

but whatever it is, no matter how inadequate or pathetic i feel, i have come to the realisation that i should stop feeling sorry for myself. because in spite of everything, in spite of putting my whole heart into that relationship and having it thrown right back in my face, i am surrounded by so many wonderful people. people who actually stop to ask me if i'm okay, people who actually spend the entire night telling me why i shouldn't risk a second heartbreak, people who actually care enough to be there and make me laugh.

and i feel sorry for her, because she will never understand what commitment means. she told me how much she loves her boyfriend, yet she fooled around so much (my ex-boyfriend wasn't the only one). her boyfriend knew about her fooling around, yet he is absolutely fine with it. i'm sure he's just happy to have his face plastered beside hers on facebook. i'm sure he's just enjoying how his friends give him props for laying such a hot chick. is he in love with her? or is he in love with being with her?

i feel so sorry for her, because although she is 10x more good looking than i am, i have 10x more real friends than she does. i know what commitment is, i have enough courage to tell the truth (even when it jeopardizes my reputation and the respect people have for me), and although my ex-boyfriend was a real fucktard, he felt enough for me to be jealous and afraid that i might fool around.

so people, open your eyes. stop buying into their lies like i did. this will be the last time i'm ever blogging about this whole saga because i'm very tired of it. i'm still hurting, but i'm healing at the same time. i just thought you all should know MY side of the story which was also HER side until she realized that it was social suicide.

i'm done here.

2008-05-23T16:01:00.002+08:00

Why America, Why?

(i want Michael Johns to put his arms around me and whisper in my ear also leh...)

Sure i am a fan of both Davids, but David C. was an absolute disappointment during the finals, whereas David A. Sang his heart out like never before.

and although David C. cried in a very macho-sexy way that i like...

i'd rather see little Archuleta bawling his eyes out!

America veh screwed up, don't even know how Michael Johns got booted off so early in the competition...

but it's okay, Chris Daughtry was no.4 anyway.

anyway, i am unemployed once again (yipee!). well not totally yipeeish cos i kinda got scammed and my pay cheque hasnt even arrived yet. there was quite a bit of drama involved and i essentially wasted one month of my life in a dingy office.

but it's okay. i've been sleeping and making phone calls to friends. THERE. i got it off my chest. for awhile i kept mum because for some strange reason i believed my boss would read my blog, but now i don't frickin' care if he does because I GOT CHEATED.

so yes, i've been sleeping almost (almost only, some days very good, i use wifi on my phone to kill time, not sleep) everyday. there was one really awful day, you know one of those days you just want to do nothing but sleep? yeah only it was a workday so i went to work and slept on-off from 9am-3pm. then my boss came in and i worked until like 4pm and went for lunch. so i essentially worked for an hour that day.

i'm sure he's going to find out about me soon ANYWAY cos the office is monitored by a surveillance camera (got sound recorder somemore), and the phone calls are recorded as well, machiam like 1984 dystopic society.

so you see, it was such a dystopic work environment that my only escape was denial, and only in sleep can i deny the harsh trappings of reality. HAHA drama.

so yes, i intend to remain a sickening slob until school starts. although i'm really sad about the lack of cashflow, i really need a break. i need to sleep more, eat more, spend more time with people i love, watch all the shows i haven't watched, and in august,

everything starts again.

2008-05-20T22:40:00.007+08:00

SO... as usual, i've been... up to nothing at all!

and as usual, i feel so damn busy but when i reflect on what i've actually been doing i realise it's not much at all. that more-than-a-week-hiatus from my blog was due to plain laziness. of course i've been doing several important uni stuff- i FINALLY received my NUS acceptance letter, gosh, who knew it would be so difficult for me to get into a course i didn't want? but yes, i'm thankful anyway, but i will need to zng my uni record alot more if i want to have an edge over other job seekers. Uni will not be a breeze.

i'm thinking of taking up a third language! French hopefully, and then i can go to France to study for a year! sounds so frickin' exciting, sounds like something that i've been wanting to do since forever. There's German too but aside from it sounding like the person's about to spit out a multitude of phlegm and whatnots, there's a German slut i would love to spit at (literally and really really want to), so no learning German for me.

So anyway, Monday saw me going down for the rugby finals, where i finally got my jade fix! had a very pleasant walk to the mrt station and a very shaky mrt ride home (i swear i am so so so sick of MRTs). but i really was very happy to see you jade. please buy Orlando Bloom back for me from England! (: and yeah, we lost, but the boys took it pretty well. well i'm not going to pretend that i KNOW rugby (well i understand scoring and all that shit, and know the point system... but i can't really understand the game in terms of tactics, skill and strategies), all i can say was that i'm proud that my school made it that far anyway, i know they trained really hard.

met up with my sec school tuition group the other day (can't remember which day) and it was just so much fun. our tutor treated us to Brazillian fare where they personally cut slices of different types of meat for you. we of course had our fill and i was just so glad that although it's been a year since we all last met up, nothing much has really changed.

he was holding his banana.

he was chopping his banana.

and ning wanted to hold and chop bananas but she hadn't had any..

Mr Chia our beloved Sec school tutor!

the very wobbly swing was about to break

Sunday saw me going down to VCH for Saints De Musica! it was a suuuuuuuch an entertaining concert, i was immensely proud of my juniors for the hard work they had put in. i enjoyed myself thoroughly (for the second half la, to be honest) and i know the j2s stepped down happy and satisfied. went to some jazz pub after that where the vocalist totally sucked ass and took one whole line of "fly me to the moon" to find the correct pitch. CANNOT MAKE IT.

nice nostrils benny

regular jeremy, severus snape, and captain hook!

this moment made me melt! really!

OK this was done in such a hurry becauseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. TODAY IS GOSSIP GIRL DAY! goodnight people. (:

2008-05-12T03:18:00.003+08:00

(not the actual victory pictures, but all the victory pics look the same anyway, so...)

YAY GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED!

as usual Cristiano Ronaldo looks oh so pretty but i think Hargreaves is starting to capture my heart...

hahaha sorry i got carried away, i watch the game for the game OF COURSE. no really, well it started out due to my fascination for Ronaldo but it ended off with a true interest in the game. although i still can't stand how wussified soccer players can be sometimes, the simplicity and excitement of the game (combined with the occasional great faces and hot bods) got me addicted.

yayyyyyyyyyyyyy Man utd FTW!

rugby tomorrow, hope it'll be yet another victory for us. (:

2008-05-08T02:51:00.003+08:00

hey people, i officially named my iphone.

CRISTIANO RONALDO, HE SHALL BE CALLED.

okay, i'm going to climb into bed with him now. sweet dreams all you losers (cos i'm sleeping with ronaldo and you're not). HAHA.

2008-05-07T22:20:00.005+08:00

the true essence of forgiveness lies in forgiving in spite of an unforgivable offense.
and with love, forgiveness is natural. It's almost inevitable.

the ability and willingness to love without inhibitions, however, spurns from stupidity.

Therefore, forgiveness is stupid.

I am stupid, and i love you.

Hence, i forgive you.

2008-05-07T00:22:00.001+08:00

I JUST REACHED HOME AND I REALIZED SOMETHING..

TODAY IS GOSSIP GIRL DAY!

OMFG!! (in true essence of the show...)

AND I'M SAD TO INFORM YOU THAT THAT JUST MADE MY DAY.

(when Gossip Girl is the peak of the day, you know you've hit an all time low)

2008-05-05T02:35:00.002+08:00

uh, nothing happening lately.

I wanna go to rugby semis tomorrow (not too interested in the game, mainly interested in JADE OH DEAR JADE DONT LET YOUR HEAD SWELL) but because i am the ONLY employee my employer has employed, i cannot even take leave. gahhh. work's a bitch and i wish i were one of those privileged assholes having the time of their lives every frickin' day. weekends pass me by way too quickly and i never seem to be able to get enough sleep.

uni admissions are making a mess out of me and i realized that getting 3 As just made me more miserable than i would have had i gotten an average grade instead.

the higher you climb, the harder you fall.

if i could just take a holiday to somewhere i've never been and nua the rest of my holidays away... Europe sounds good, a pity my Italy trip never materialized.

who can say that they are truly happy?

2008-04-28T13:33:00.002+08:00

yee haaaa I'm blogging from work on my phone, how frickin cool is that?? I love technology ya'll. Ok I'm hungry, lunch now bye! :)

2008-04-23T01:26:00.004+08:00

YAY GOSSIP GIRL IS BACK! i swear i'm absolutely addicted. sure, it's brainless, whiny, nothing like we've never seen before but it's so so addictive! it's like a chick flick serial, how awesome is that?

these are the two female leads, and although i initially found the brunette wayyyy prettier, the blonde started to grow on me. she's just so goddamn charming and lively. and when i told Darrell this he said, "yah her name is Blake Lively what". -.-

and chace crawford- a dream come trueeeeeee.

then now i'm left feeling unfulfilled and dissatisfied because ONE EPISODE PER WEEK IS SIMPLY NOT ENOUGH!

and i also want heroes! give me something to rush home for...

haha anyway i got jesse and roy THONG tutors.

Jesse: get me someone qualified please i really need help.
Roy: eh no dudes please! get me a hot chick please please please?

i think roy's brain looks something like this...

just the shape, not the size. the size would have to be demagnified many times over first. but roy thong i found the perfect halloween costume for you lorzxzxzzzx.

p.s. my future looks utterly bleak.

2008-04-21T02:54:00.001+08:00

If love does not know how to give and take without restrictions, it is not love, but a transaction that never fails to lay stress on a plus and a minus.

2008-04-21T02:25:00.000+08:00

There is a face beneath this mask but it is not me. I'm no more that face than I am the muscles beneath it, or the bones beneath them.

-V for Vendetta

2008-04-20T12:19:00.003+08:00

i agree in disciplining and protecting your child.

but i do not believe in controlling each and every single aspect of your child's life. be careful, hold the leash too tightly and your child might just choke.

2008-04-16T02:11:00.002+08:00

there is the racist and the sexist, i wonder if there's such thing as a nationalist?

not nationalist per Se as in that regarding a political movement defined by the geographical and ideological borders of those who actually care, but a sort of a discrimination against people from a certain country, of a certain nationality.

Who's a nationalist?

my hand is up.

and although i am happy and content to say that i am 100% Chinese, i would be prouder to tell a foreigner that i am 100% local. an ang moh at the airport asked me if i was Chinese and i said yes, and then it turned out that he thought i was a Chinese girl from China. and in all honesty, it wasn't a compliment for me.

First things first. i hate how all ang mohs think that all Chinese are from China. their ignorance really pisses me off. our culture is indeed very diverse and yes, although i am of "Chinarian" ancestry, i am FROM Singapore, where English is our first language, thank you very much.

i am from Singapore, where i would like to believe the majority of the population speaks at an appropriate volume, and when we do speak mandarin, the tone of our voice does not fluctuate rapidly and unnecessarily, albeit in a very annoying manner.

i am from Singapore, where we do not throw money at the cashier and act arrogantly EVEN IF our economy were to boom like that of China's. i will not complain if something is too expensive, because if it is too expensive for me, it is not the salesperson's fault but mine, because it is i who do not have the capability and luck to have a monetary capacity big enough for that item.

and although Chinarians may very well take over the world one day, right now your 1 yuan does not count for anything to us. So don't act be so rude to me when the items you bought cost 66 Yuan but we have to round it up to 70 Yuan (we will give you back your change in Singapore dollars, damn it), and don't act as though that 4 Yuan is damn big a deal because it is quite simply not. In fact i just calculated, your 4 yuan is but 70 Singapore CENTS. Don't yell at me just because you THINK i overcharged you of 70 cents. Also, yes, at the airport we are very nice, we accept foreign currencies, lucky you. However, we will not give you back your change in RMB, very simply because we are not the freaking bank, and you're not shopping in freaking China. Here in Singapore, our cash registers are filled with Singapore dollars, so do not kick up a fuss just because i can't give you back your change in RMB.

Also, you're shopping at a newly-built and wonderfully furnished world class airport, so don't bother bargaining or asking for discounts. if i may be excused for being blunt, it is quite disgusting when you people do that.

That aside, i do see some of your kind who are extremely diligent and somewhat capable. I patronize a manicure shop in fareast owned by a PRC and whose workers are PRCs. Back at the airport i had 2 PRC colleagues whom i couldn't actually click with but was incredibly impressed with how spanking clean the shop became after their arrival. I appreciate these people, and i view them as being in a league of their own, and i hope there are many others like them.

But i am afterall, still a nationalist. Let's just say i found this particular guy pretty cute- UNTIL i found out...i suppose you can guess what i found out. yes, his nationality.

and I KNOW for a fact that i'm not alone on this.

2008-04-16T01:42:00.002+08:00

and so life has been mundane.

no, i dont have an incredibly high paying job anymore, because although my boss houdini-ed into my life again, i do not want to work for someone this irresponsible. this was what happened: i asked my boss to help me purchase an iphone (that i would pay him for) and so apparently he did so immediately. the eager beaver me couldn't wait for it and so i repeatedly bugged him to give it to me asap because quite frankly, LG shine is boring me to tears (not that the iphone would be any better but still...)

and so on 3 occasions, i waited for 2 hours each time, amounting to 6 hours of waiting time for that goddamn iphone. it never arrived because after the 3rd occasion he messaged me and basically told me to "fuck off", albeit in an, emo, i-am-going-to-cut-myself-for-you way. so with that i lost my iphone and my job and i never heard from that fella again. i gave up all hopes of getting an iphone because even if i wanted to purchase one elsewhere, i do not have a high paying job to support that sort of luxury anymore.

so i thought, fuck it. after 2 amazing weeks of bumming around and gaining weight, i finally went down for a job interview at bugis as a tuition coordinator. so yesterday after the interview at the very shitty building called Fortune Centre (i swear it's shitty, the whole building is like dedicated to vegetarian food, knn), i went to fareast to meet nicole for our manicure session andddddddd i bumped into my boss.

i just gaped and stared (glared, rather) at him, and i literally did a double-take and froze. he was smiling at me and it got me pretty confused cos, isn't this dude supposed to hate me? i mean he did tell me to fuck off! and so i didnt approach him, i really just looked at him, unsure of what to do. so he approached me instead and told me how he's been trying to reach me and yadayada and i went like, "riiiiighhhtttttt. you messaged me and basically told me to fuck off". and then came this story about how his vicious, psychotic ex girlfriend took his handphone and now he has a new phone and lost my number which was why he never contacted me after that.

so now after his magical reappearance, i have a shitty job as a tuition coordinator but a very well-paid job waiting for me as well. i dont know if this dude is for real, he keeps disappearing (he is ABSOLUTELY UNCONTACTABLE) and my friends convinced me he's probably just a scam with a sick fetish for scamming sweet and innocent girls like me. HAH.

and so i have been emo-ing without the iphone, especially after seeing mok's. actually the phone is pretty sucky but it's just THE coveted iphone, i think the ipod feature is ownage and the screen is very nice big and clear but that's about it, balls.

i can survive with my LG Shine, I SUPPOSE. gahhh.

SO ANYWAY. i work at bugis now as a tuition coordinator. basically all i have to do is to search the database for those people who are looking for tutors, and then call up tutors to ask if they're interested in taking up that assignment. basically it's a no-brainer job that requires me to sit in a small, dingy room they call an "office" and make phone calls all day long. i just started today and i feel like quitting already. BUT if any of you are looking for tutors/assignments do let me know alright!

i actually do miss school you know, work is so mundane. i mean yeah school sucked cos i had to wake up at 6 every morning but it's okay you know! there's so much more room for error, it was okay to skip classes (at least in SAJC, but NOT for lit classes haha) and if you do screw up all you get is a scolding that you will forget in due time, and you get to sleep in between lessons (in SAJC if you take history you can sleep DURING the lesson). life in school was good, and even with A levels, there were fun, happy, crazy times.

i went for my NTU Mass Comm interview on sat. it was so screwed up, i don't even want to talk about it. the only thing i can say for certain is that i WILL NOT get in fo sho. yes, that's how bad it went. my future is screwed up already, my life is ruined.
i shall forever be condemned as a tuition coordinator.

yes i ranted enough already. i need to head to bed soon, work tomorrow HAHHHHHHHHHH life sucks i need a new hobby. collect stickers or something.

p.s ARENA is the place to be this Sat, people!

2008-04-11T19:02:00.002+08:00

OH DEAR.

i started watching American Idol (again, i totally gave up last season) after watching David Archueleta's stunning redition of John Lennon's Imagine. and then i got a little sick of David and found another favourite in the very sexy Aussie, Michael Johns. His raspy, sexy voice was absolutely perfect for the bluesy song he sang for the Dolly Parton week and i loved him ever since. Well i could only love him for like A WEEK because today, he got eliminated.

WHAT WHYYYYY?!?! i mean i wasn't expecting him to win because i don't think he's idol material, but STILL. All the girls should just go home, seriously. They are boring and unoriginal.

GAH i henceforth boycott American Idol. AGAIN.

2008-04-10T05:08:00.001+08:00

i am crazy about you.